willing victim

     Today my virtual straight bf is watching football so I told him I wanted all his attention or none, so we won't be seeing each other today.  Otherwise the relationship is still going strong.  The other day I danced with a guy I met years ago when I let guys think I was female in real life.   I stopped pretending to be female because all the guys I met used me for sex and I couldn't drop my female persona fast enough to avoid feeling like a slut.  When I met the guy I danced with the other day, I was coming on as a real female, so through the years he still believes I am.  He has a girl friend in real life that he has sex with and likes to talk about her with me.    He was telling me that she has a boy friend now and he has to be careful that the bf doesn't show up while he is having sex with her.  I guess it's true that the physical world is all about attachment.

    My virtual relationship with my straight bf has been going on for about a month now.  We see each other everyday and there is a lot of sex involved.  Sometimes I get off and sometimes I just do it for him.  I find his need for my female persona keeps getting stronger and stronger causing my girl self to become more real.        He does keep me a secret from his real world and seems to tell himself he is only role playing with me.  I really don't care what he calls it, for me the reality is his ever increasing need for me.  I guess I am also developing a need for him, but I am aware of it and try not to let it become an attachment.