willing victim

     So I seem to be involved with another person.  Only his personality is very toxic so I am relating to what the culture calls his mental illness.  But to me it's not anymore an illness than what passes for normal in our culture.  Anyways there is an exchange of energy which I find very interesting.  There is an element of control which I am not usually comfortable with but in this case, since he is unable to free his own mind, someone else will control him and since we have a relationship of sorts in the material world, it is important to me that some idiot doesn't get control of his mind again.  So I keep this deeper relationship in the virtual world because I have to relate to him without attachment.  But even in the virtual world it is difficult but at least possible.

     We all get programed by our culture to meet certain standards of behavior.  But most of us don't ask who is doing the programing or why.  We just assume it's for our own good.  But if for some reason you question the motives behind the programing, you start to change your reality.  I contend it is possible to become aware of a more meaningful and rewarding life if you are a determined seeker of truth and not just a naughty child.  And so lately I've been living my virtual life as a femboy and have encounted the resistance that goes along with any deviation from the prescribed cultural norm.  Consequently, I have become aware of a meaningful reality which is different from the reality I have been living.  While the culture tries to isolate me and erase me, it is unable to bring down my conscious level of awareness.