willing victim

  

   Having a bf who is in love with you makes you want to be pretty and feminine.  I get a rush from having someone feel this way about me.  The other day I told him I was a hussy and he said no you're not, you're my girl friend.  And I said I work hard keeping up my end of our love relationship.    We both wear dresses and have boobs, but I have a pussy and he has a penis on second life.  It is amazing how compatible our emotional and sexual life is.  We see each other everyday and it never gets old.   I guess we both have a condition in which the world rejects us, but that fact only makes our relationship deeper and more intense.

   I've been learning alot about male egos.  It seems some of them are very aware and this is what attracts me to them.  But I am becoming more aware of the fact that powerful male egos are dark.  They use their awareness to use people, and this is what my last bf was doing to me.  He worked as some kind of supervisor for the government and used his awareness to keep his government employees productive.  And so he was using me to keep his ego powerful enough to control the people who needed to be used by the government.  It took awhile and some pain to see the truth of what he was doing but eventually I was able to find a new bf and shit can him, lol.   Now my new bf is a shemale on second life but I suspect his real-life male ego is very tortured and I am able to ease his pain.  And he is aware enough to know that I am responsible for his escape from being a victim.  Males who put on dresses and look pretty get tortured by their male egos and it is almost impossible to overcome th