willing victim

   I realize anytime anyone steps over the boundary lines our culture has set up for us to follow, life becomes very difficult.  Most of us spend our lives trying to stay within these boundary lines and become a cog in society's wheel, which doesn't seem to bring any kind of happiness or contentment but it is the path of least resistance.  If, for whatever reason, you decide there is more to life than being part of the cultural machine and follow a different path, like being gender fluid, you will need to turn your attention inward to find a reality you can live with.    Even though in your heart you know you are a worthwhile person who deserves respect, the culture will drag you to the surface and tell you that you are sick and need help or become angry with you and sometimes even violent.  This situation can go on for years and for some it never ends.  For me it did end and with the help of my step-dad, who is a guru to me, I am able to express myself and enjoy being who I

I had a few insights into my Pivotal Times post which I want to write down so I don’t forget them.  This helps to drag my intellect along the path to my enlightenment.  First off, I mentioned having the flu after buying the mules, but part of my insight is the fact that it seems I had the virus that we are all very concerned about these days.  That was two years ago at exactly this time of year.  I had a very good season with the mules both working them and riding one of them with my mom.  But over the winter, I didn’t use them much except a couple of times when the snow was just right and I was able to use them in my wagon-sled.  Those were fun times and they did very well for me.  I finally got around to using the mules to get firewood that my step-dad had cut and split over the winter, yesterday. It was almost two months since the sled ride and when I took the reins and locked into their minds, I felt the mind of my one mare mule, in particular, lock into my mind also

   My latest deep relationship on second life has some interesting aspects to it.  First of all I was dancing at a new place, for me, on second life when a guy showed up and asked to dance with me.  We danced and had a great time together and became friends.  We met everyday after that, at a place he rented for us, for at least a month.  He was breaking up with his wife and was planing to move out and find an apartment for himself in real life.  This situation was causing him a lot of pain and I know seeing me helped him deal with the pain.  The relationship kept getting deeper and deeper to the point where we had a virtual sexual experience.  After that I noticed he was distracted when he was with me and then one day he was voice chatting with woman when I came on line with him.  I had to ask who it was and found out it was the wife who was divorcing him.  I figure she could sense there was another woman in his life and he told her about our virtual relationship so she came on seco