Enlightenment and gender fluidness

   I realize anytime anyone steps over the boundary lines our culture has set up for us to follow, life becomes very difficult.  Most of us spend our lives trying to stay within these boundary lines and become a cog in society's wheel, which doesn't seem to bring any kind of happiness or contentment but it is the path of least resistance.  If, for whatever reason, you decide there is more to life than being part of the cultural machine and follow a different path, like being gender fluid, you will need to turn your attention inward to find a reality you can live with.
   Even though in your heart you know you are a worthwhile person who deserves respect, the culture will drag you to the surface and tell you that you are sick and need help or become angry with you and sometimes even violent.  This situation can go on for years and for some it never ends.  For me it did end and with the help of my step-dad, who is a guru to me, I am able to express myself and enjoy being who I am without being a victim to the pressures of society. 
  Here is another blog I wrote on this subject.



Being gender fluid is a difficult path to follow with a good attitude.  Even here on second life people   are afraid to connect with anyone who isn't presenting a fully male or female image.  So I spend much of my time alone on second life as well as in the physical world.  Lots of people use the distinction of second life or the real world.  But I find where ever I take my consciousness is real for me.  Growing up with this condition was very difficult.  I could feel people thought there was something very wrong with me.  And of course it took me many years to develop an awareness of reality to deal with all this negativity.  But after reaching a certain level of awareness, being gender fluid is fun.  The people in the world still bring as much negativity into my life as possible, but for the most part these people are unaware and play these mind games on me unconsciously.   But when I am forced to play games, I play consciously, which puts me at a great advantage.  So when someone enters my mind with the idea to fix me or maybe just hurt me for being different, they don't leave my mind without eating all the bad karma they were hoping to hand off to me.  And then it materializes in their lives and they have have no idea where it came from because I play games without attachment.  So if you don't understand what I am saying here it would be best not to start playing games with me. lol    








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