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        It's difficult to figure out what my virtual life is all about.  Part of it is of course sexual, but sex isn't the most important part.  It's just a vehicle I use to have deep relationships with the people I meet.  Once the relationship is established then the other person, ALWAYS tries to use me in one way or another.       But I have been dealing with this condition all my life in my material world and have come to a point where I don't get hurt or used anymore.  Soo I carry this awareness into my virtual life and find that anyone I relate deeply with who is toxic to me gets attacked by my spiritual immune system.            In other words, they get to eat their own karma instead of passing it down to me.

    OMG I've been going through changes!  First off I broke up with my bf because he was starting to take me for granted.  I stopped seeing him for a week, hoping to change his religion and he did squeal like a pig for the whole week that I didn't see him.  Then I got in touch with him and he told me not to ever ignore him again like I did the past week and I stopped seeing him again.  I think this time it is really over.   Anyways I am in contact with a guy who carries a gun to work.   He works for an agency that protects the rich and powerful from their own karma.  Then he comes on second life to unload this bad karma to anyone who opens up to him.  But we've come to really like each other and I am reluctant to force him to eat his lethal karma and I hope he is hesitant to pass it on down to me.  So we only see each other occasionally and don't fuck.   So I continue on my journey to find unconditional love.  It is v...