Spirituality and Gender Fluidness 10



   Well I am experiencing unconditional love again.  There were a couple of upsets when the guy I am with felt that our relationship was gay, but I assured him it wasn't for me and when in the virtual world, I am heterosexual.  So we agreed that our relationship is hetero in the virtual world for both of us.
  We agreed not to have sex with other people.  And just today I had to tell a guy I couldn't have sex with him because I have a new bf.  I hate being used for sex and for me it's soo much better to have a good relationship in which sex is just a part of it.







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